Change

"People don't like it when you change because the ways they used to manipulate you stop working." Wyatt Woodsmall

I really feel stressed right now that some people I thought I could confide with turned out to be my worst enemies. I know I am very far from perfect; I have made several lapses of judgments. But it is said, "There's no such thing as failure; only feedback." From failure, we learn what went wrong so we could correct ourselves in order to reach the original goal or something else. Yet, I could not believe that I would be subjected to gossip and backstabbing over a certain failure.

I am determined to rise from this even stronger. I feel the urgency to have my self-improvement programs bear fruit. After all, I am in a GAME called life.

Anyway, back to this calumny thrown at me. In the movie of my mind, I saw a montage of everyone who had maligned me in the past. These images I find are converging to these dudes. Every negative feeling are carried over.

What's ironic though is that even though I am embittered, I am trying to channel the negativity into taking positive action. I know that even if I take my revenge directly, say by punching and kicking them, no good thing will come out. I'll be even more bitter about life. The safest and most productive way of venting this anger is working hard to become the better version of myself than the one they found as the object of their contempt. This says a great stoic thinker [I can't remember if it's Marcus Aurelius or Epictetus] is the greatest form of revenge.

So going back to the quote by Wyatt, to change is inevitable. So I must be prepared that people will and do disapprove of the changes that are taking place.